Ok I admit that this blogger snafu has gotten some peoples blogs all buggered up but ..
I am getting paranoid. I leave comments and it says they have gone through.
They do not appear. Not once, not twice, . … and on the same blogs. Other peoples comments show up. They go through and show up on other blogs but not these one ummm . …
Is it me? something I said or did . …
See how I am.
I have hunted around youtube thinking maybe someone else with MS might play video with me LOL. Most vblog type videos I could find are folks that are excited about CCSVI and how it the cure of the century. Then of few where the blogger is in a dark room going on about how life sucks and then some where I can tell I have absolutely nothing in common with their life believe system’s.
The distinction between past, present, and future is only an illusion, however persistent. Time is not all what it seems. It does not flow in one direction, and the future exists simultaneously with the past.
Some bloggers have been on the topic – what if I could go back in time and warn my past self about multiple sclerosis? It is an interesting proposition - time travel.
Time and Space
Assume we have an essence, something that makes us each unique that will move on, we may call it a soul, a spirit, a mass of electrons, whatever it may or may not be it could exist everywhere or anywhere. Biblical interpretation of a world without end perhaps? If this is so then neither space nor time really exist. We would be in one space (where we are) and there would be that before where we are and that after where we are and all the infinite points between.
The weather has been doing some atypical stuff lately. Nothing unheard of but still a rare pattern none the less. Here in Calif. we have another bad batch of bad weather. The Sierras are experiencing snow storms of a Winter type, north of here there has been a tornado warning up and two touch downs confirmed.
I started thinking (yeah I know) are we not headed back into an ice age. I am not talking movie drama stuff just over the billions of years of geologic history’s patterns. Ice Ages come and go. We are due. The start of a glacier is snow that accumulates, pressure compacts it after time snow crystals become very dense and and glacial ice is formed. It will begin to flow outward or down slope under the influence of gravity. If the rate of snow accumulation is more than the rate of melting (ablation), the glacier will grow. It is the snow accumulation thing that got me thinking about the ice age deal.
Ok time will tell LOL
What am I thinking about going back in time and maybe talking to my past self? Is it possible?
One of those mornings where I might just ramble . … about a grape, where my photo is, and well . …
Spent I bit of time figuring out Skype. Yeah, OK, OK, it is a simple thing to do. Download and install the program. Click on the new icon and – well if your brain foggy like me – augh stare at the screen and wonder what the heck am I suppose to do! I finally found a few names I recognized and sent out an invite – well, I think I sent out invites? My friend Tim and I managed to get it working with me on video and him just voice. That worked until Tim decided to try and hook up his old webcam. ha! I tweeted me that he has located the missing driver disc and maybe today we will get to try it out video to video.
I was surfing the net and came across an blog entry where someone discussed making plasma with a grape. Well you know I am there! My little experiment – yeah I had to see if it really worked – came out OK and I did video tape it.
Spent hours messing around with the video program, read a bit, switched video graphic cards in the computer (Mike wanted the ones in it because they can be hooked up in triple configuration), and I chopped the remaining bark off a large tree branch the came crashing down at 4:15 am. Now you know why I am up typing at 5 am. The dang thing was (and still is) blocking the drive in a way that if a drunk or dumb driver (we have a lot of those here) came around the corner in the dark and swerved to miss it they would end up in the side of my truck. Managed to get it more at an angle so hop everyone misses it till someone stronger than I can move it.
If you want to see where one of my photos ended up,
what happened to the little grape,
or some of my attempts with the video stuff it is all right here:
The past few days have found me fatigued and irritable. Not a super great combo really. I think I go into a mode similar to the old saying “just put one foot in front of the other” even when the left foot is inconsistent at finding the front of the right. I even fell asleep sitting here at the desk – twice! Yikes! Well it did pass the time.
I usually do not spend much typography on the subject of multiple sclerosis because, umm, well I try hard not to let it become my central focus. Not sure if that makes sense but best I can do for an explanation for the time being.
Oh but yes the little MS Monster is always here. Every so often I dwell on what changes have crept up on me. I do not think I have relapses more of a steady progression over time. I may notice and wonder when this foot or that leg got number or was this as annoying and painful last year? It is not like I have woken up and went dang my leg is not working today. In some ways I think this is easier for me to deal with. As things get worse I have plenty of time to adapt.
I am also a big procrastinator when it comes to making appointments with my PCP. I always forget something I wanted to tell her and say something I did not. I am paranoid, thinking many times that the docs are just waiting to pounce and mess me up with DMV or maybe SSD – I dunno illogical and irrational thoughts but I do have them. I like my PCP and Neurologist very much but they are “doctor’s” – DUH.
How to pass the Time
Today was the last day of Adaptive PE so now I am really starting to think about how I will pass the time. KRP is always at work (the evil empire she works for cut hours but not the number of days worked) and Catfish listens well to me but really is not a conversationalist extraordinaire. That leaves reading and the computer. The good thing about no PE is a will be able to have some gasoline so I can go out and take some photos or maybe catch a fish or two. The bad about it? Not having any where to get up and go. Soon I will stay up later and sleep in later since I have no reason to get up LOL.
I decided to make another silly video to pass the time. I found some 3D plates and set up my green screen and bout wore myself out trying to run in place. I have never attempted to render a 3D animation, background, and myself against a green screen into one video. So excuse the rough results but I had fun and it passed some time.
So here I present to you my attempt at getting scarfed down my a dino. Ha I get eaten this time maybe next time I will slay the sucker?