The past few days have found me fatigued and irritable. Not a super great combo really. I think I go into a mode similar to the old saying “just put one foot in front of the other” even when the left foot is inconsistent at finding the front of the right. I even fell asleep sitting here at the desk – twice! Yikes! Well it did pass the time.
I usually do not spend much typography on the subject of multiple sclerosis because, umm, well I try hard not to let it become my central focus. Not sure if that makes sense but best I can do for an explanation for the time being.
Oh but yes the little MS Monster is always here. Every so often I dwell on what changes have crept up on me. I do not think I have relapses more of a steady progression over time. I may notice and wonder when this foot or that leg got number or was this as annoying and painful last year? It is not like I have woken up and went dang my leg is not working today. In some ways I think this is easier for me to deal with. As things get worse I have plenty of time to adapt.
I am also a big procrastinator when it comes to making appointments with my PCP. I always forget something I wanted to tell her and say something I did not. I am paranoid, thinking many times that the docs are just waiting to pounce and mess me up with DMV or maybe SSD – I dunno illogical and irrational thoughts but I do have them. I like my PCP and Neurologist very much but they are “doctor’s” – DUH.
How to pass the Time
Today was the last day of Adaptive PE so now I am really starting to think about how I will pass the time. KRP is always at work (the evil empire she works for cut hours but not the number of days worked) and Catfish listens well to me but really is not a conversationalist extraordinaire. That leaves reading and the computer. The good thing about no PE is a will be able to have some gasoline so I can go out and take some photos or maybe catch a fish or two. The bad about it? Not having any where to get up and go. Soon I will stay up later and sleep in later since I have no reason to get up LOL.
I decided to make another silly video to pass the time. I found some 3D plates and set up my green screen and bout wore myself out trying to run in place. I have never attempted to render a 3D animation, background, and myself against a green screen into one video. So excuse the rough results but I had fun and it passed some time.
So here I present to you my attempt at getting scarfed down my a dino. Ha I get eaten this time maybe next time I will slay the sucker?