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Bifurcation – Social and Self

no sign copyLife has gotten confusing in many ways. The cognitive problems that Multiple sclerosis has brought on leave me baffled and confused – a lot. Sometimes it is the simple things such as staring at the television remote and not quite being able to figure out exactly what button it was I was going to push. For whatever reason if I just set it down and start over again all is good.

Then there are the more annoying communication problems. Social situations can become a maze-like trip where the start and end of conversations are not clear let alone the trip between the two points. Reading other blogs and social site messages often leaves me wondering if I have misunderstood someone’s message or if I am reading more into it then there is. The social dynamics of group interactions elude me now and leave me hesitant and insecure enough that I tend not to participate much.

Tasks that were once easy are harder to complete now. It becomes easier and easier to make concessions. It has become obvious that I need to simplify. The new computer is a basic model this really pisses me off. One, that the lack of money played  into this but more importantly two,  my inability to do what I used to be able to do – like rebuild my old one or hustle and come up with parts to build a new one –  really, really, annoy me to no end. Where is the line between compromise and surrender? I am too stubborn to give up.

Put this all together and here I am at another bifurcate in the road of life.

Journey to Find a Song of Peace.

peaceI spent the late evening early morning playing songs on blip.fm and You Tube. When I need to “chill”, I tend to do this.

Organized religion is failing to provide role models of peace, our political leaders are failing to provide role models of peace, yes, this sounds rather harsh and negative but really, overall it rings true to me. There are leaders that are positive role models. Do they talk about peace much?

The most beautiful instruments’ on Earth are our voices.  I am thoroughly disgusted with the folks who can’t seem to talk about health care without trash talking the other side and town halls where rudeness, inconsideration, and outright yelling seems to somehow mistaken as acceptable behavior. From New Jersey to California the news focuses on the negative.

Music can reach across borders, music can touch our hearts, and music can reach down and touch the core of a person’s spirit lifting it, if only for a few minutes from despair.

I hope you take two minutes and listen to the PS22 Chorus the kids are awesome!


UPDATE: MY MOTHER BOARD FRIED I WILL BE GONE FOR AWHILE . … AUGH!!!!!!!!!!

Health Care Boogeyman?

leafhoscopeThere are so many video’s about Canadian Health care out there! Proving to me that depending on what side of the debate here in the U.S.  a person is on they can and will find numerous ways to support their opinion.

Here is one that shows the Canadian system in a bad way. The video below was  by Steven Crowder a comedian and political commentator.


The Canadian system is show in a positive light in this video posted on US Health Crisis blog by Karoli.


Geezz, our country, The United States of America, is NOT, I repeat NOT Canada. So why are people using it on either side of the health care debate to support their ideas? Even President Obama at the joint press conference in Guadalajara with the Canadian Prime Minister said:

“I suspect that you Canadians will continue to get dragged in by those who oppose reform, even though I’ve said nothing about Canadian health care reform. I don’t find Canadians particularly scary, but I guess some of the opponents of reform think that they make a good boogeyman. I think that’s a mistake.”

Here is a link to the video of the conference comments if you want to check it out for yourself. Obama’s comments on health care start at 36:04 on the time line and the quote above is at 39:07.

Wouldn’t this whole debate/discussion be a lot easier if the politicians would decide which one of the 5(?) different plans they were going to run with, figure out how the plan would be paid for and actually explain it to us? All the back and forth and double talk is very defeating. Instead of out of control and over reaction from the U.S. citizens at town halls etc. we could actually discuss the facts not all the fear driven or party line conjecture.

Social Confusion ROCKS!

Social-network

Social networking sites are great to catch-up with friends, share photographs, music and links but it seems to be a great time suck.  I do not even blog everyday anymore so why am I joining all these sites?

First out of the gate that leads to confusion is setting up each one. Sounds easy and it should be. After all I am not a complete dummy although sometimes I wonder. I sometimes think that I wake up each day with way less brain power than the day before.

How many networks can one person join? How many different identities can I  manage before I mess up and cross the line between my real life and my Internet one?  What I mean is, I have places where I converse with people I know in person and site where I hold back some info.  I really do not want certain people goggling my name and ending up here – like my parents for example.  It is not that I spend a lot of effort trying to hide my identity but . …

Then there is the problem of making sure that the setting in each social network site are set up so I do not end up having double of triple updates.  Augh – my pea brain is smoking on that one – smell the smoke?

I shudder to think how crazy all this would get if I tried to join every network that others use. So for right now I am keeping it with Twitter, FriendFeed, Facebook, and my blog here. I do use blip to listen to the tunes and library thing where I am trying to make a list of all my books.

The distinction between blogging and social networking is going to be hard to maintain in future I think. With blog posts forwarded to different social sites and comments from social site showing up on blogs – yikes! Technology is designed to condense things.   Many articles I have read and personal friends relay of dislike of the internet connection to share believing that it is the ruin of interpersonal communication.

It is  important to stay  connected to people on a person level  rather than just through technology. Human contact is wonderful!  I just do not find myself getting out as much.  Social isolation is not a good thing eh?  Acquaintances have start to shy away when  they do not understand why I am not up for outings at a drop of the hat anymore. There are days fatigue stops me cold.  Then there are other things too (uh huh the mother nature calls). Who wants to hang out with someone  whose main goal while site seeing is the location of all the restrooms. On hot days I flounder.  Some days formulating coherent conversation is near impossible for me.

Multiple sclerosis has left me in the dirt socially.  Oh wells, that is where blogs and social sites ROCK for me.