rant

Bail Me Out

I sometimes just get PO’d when I see or hear something. Especially when I hear it over and over again. What is with bailing out the “poor” uninformed saps that got themselves over their heads with a messed up mortgage? I mean I am sorry you did not take the time to read the dang deal or think about the consequence of a balloon payment but really why when we need the dollars so badly does this government feel the need to bail you or your mortgage company’s asses out? And then that bit is followed about a piece on deals for first time home owners. I have no problem with that but – what about us poor dumbos that did it right? You know, paid off our mortgages through the years, did not fall for a refinance trap with a balloon payment or payments we knew we could not afford?

Now some of us are stuck in a bad market in neighborhoods that have gone to the gangs and varmint’s etc. but does the government say hey, you know what you did what was thought in standard circles  to be right so we will help you and toss you some bucks too! NOT!!! No special rates or deals for us to get the heck out of our hoods. Which by the way we are still in because we did not jump at the first mortgage offer or buy something we know we could not afford.

Yes the housing situation sucks and something needs to be done but rewarding the folks who through ignorance or maybe hopeful thinking decided to get in way over their heads is not right. I am so tired of getting the short stick because I don’t know or choose to use the sytem, nor do I make stupid mortgage deals.

Because the bank that issued my credit card was careless and lost big time I get to deal with their crazy attempts at getting an extra buck out of me, some are even lowerering peoples limits, raiseing fees, . … I am sure I will get to pay extra for their screw ups too.  Bail outs, bail outs, bail outs, who is gonna bail me out?

Ok enough comment on if you wish. I don’t get it. Sometimes I wonder why we don’t take out a new mortgage and then say F it and not pay – I mean then we could afford to rent somewhere in a nice neighborhood cause we could take the money and pay off the credit cards and fix the cars  – God I hate morals and having them.

Just Put on a Happy Face

Not to be negative but why is that many people think that multiple sclerosis is just an inconvenient thing? That forcing a happy face when things are crappy is a good thing, an expected thing – just go about life we all have our burdens to bare.

I suppose when in a good place it is not so off. Hope and positivity are dangling there like a brass ring at the carnival ride. But, when the disabling stuff is going full force it is hard not feel like an explanation is necessary, it is hard to stifle the urge to scream at someone’s ignorance, however well intentioned there thoughts are.

At least I have a name for what is messing me up. When someone accuses me of being drunk I suppose I have a retort now. It explains why sometimes one of my eyes stops working, why I can’t walk without falling over sometimes, why I have trouble sleeping, why walking through a book store calls for a nap, or when I can’t remember something at least I know why.

I am sure that everyone knows someone that has it and is doing “marvelous” so what is the big deal? Well, there are those of us not doing so great sometimes. It is a strange deal this MS, yah never know till you wake up what parts of your self are gonna work and which parts are not.

It is hard to identify with a self that has a disease that
No one knows what causes it
No one knows what cures it
No one knows what course it will take

Then there is the quality of life deal too . …should I stick myself with needle full of drugs that may or may not make me feel like doo doo and can damage my body once or three times a week OR should I stab myself (afraid major here of needles) once a day and have welts OR should I manage the painful stuff with other drugs and see where it goes OR should I just do what I have been doing – just plugging along pretending it is all OK.

Right now I have lost myself.
Re- invention is necessary
Resistance is futile

This SUCKS!!!

Symptoms of MS