Misc.

It Is Good

Ok, so I have to go with that this Christmas was not all that bad.  I spent the day at my parents.  A few firsts happened there too. It was the first time that a dish I made and brought met my moms approval. It was the first time I was able to keep my big mouth shut when my brother went into his usual diatribes where the point to be garnered is how wonderful he is.

I made it there and back in one piece.

I still have my cold and am hacking my lungs up – well at least it feels that way but today I feel asleep on the couch and there I remained most of the day – ZZZZZzzzz ah it felt good to snooze undisturbed.

Catfish and Annie dogs are waiting downstairs for me. The other half put some ribs in the crock pot early this morning and they are cooking away. Oh they smell so good! Yeah! I don’t have to make dinner.

I am headed back downstairs to peacefully suck on a cough drop, smell the goodness of dinnner, and cuddle with the dogs while under a pile of blankets on the couch in front of the boob tube.

It is good

Tis the Season

I have been in a funk. The kind I get when I am under a barage of ho ho ho and Merry Christmas cheer from all sides. I am not a scrooge I am just not having a cheery life right now.  Somewhere between feeling bad and having economic hard times my usual over board cheery holiday self left on the last boat headed out to sea.

I have been known to decorate my truck with battery operated Christmas lights, wreath on the grill, and drive around blarring seasonal music.  I can spend hours wrapping gifts and making my own bows.

But not this year. I am emotionally trying to deal with what my new vision of me and my future will be.  The saying ‘when life gives you lemons make lemonade” makes me want to throw the dang lemons and watch them break into pulpy pieces.

I have friends that have their power turned off, phones turned off,  and I can’t help out. I have very special people going through really tuff times in Nevada and I can’t get there because of the bad weather and I don’t dare assume I could handle the drive let alone chaining up! For the first time in many years I truly feel helpless to help.

Money is short here. Funds set aside for presents had to spent for a new radiator for the car. AUGH! at least I am not alone in this one!

But, here is the but, I have saved a twenty dollar bill for three months, hidden in my wallet at the bottom. I decided it was for something special not knowing what that special would be.

I used it the other day and it brought a moment of happiness to someone and that is the point.

Regardless of spiritual beliefs the message of the season reached me.

I am happy for a few moments here too. 🙂

Two Prayers

Perhaps it is true, that there are only two prayers.

Help and Thank you.

Thank you for all the curious, beautiful, wondrous,  and exciting things I have experienced.

Help me deal with this new addition to lifes repretoire.

Ants, Brats, Bored

Not that much exciting going on around here.

Still chasing ants, ants, and more, ANTS!

Attended a group Christmas Party this weekend. Last year I roamed about taking photos and chatting it up with old friends and acquaintances. This year there were about 250 people and way to many kids. Kids are great – don’t get me wrong – but some kids left unattended can and were little pains in the arse.

I spent the time trying not to become slamed into the table by the the unruley kid behind me as he continued to smash into my chair. Then one trip (I took the long way along the edge of the room so I had a wall about) to use the facilities a kid ran into me and as I almost saved myself from hitting the ground he got me again. As my partner saved me from falling the kid ran off laughing.

Where were the parents? Ignoring their kids that is for sure :(. Thanks all you little brats for pointing out to me that a year ago I could have chased you around and this year I was lucky not to fall on my arse. The ants behave better than you.

I seem to have caught a cold or something too – yuk yuk.

So I spend the day on the couch sleeping and playing the Indiana Jones Lego game.

Put my friends wedding pics on a disc and used the lightscribe feature to put a neat pic pf them leaving the Church on the front of it. So, they can send it to his family.

So exciting NO? Well of to read and fall back sleep.

And – watch the ants . …